20M, Numb penis for 5 years, hourglass deformity during bowel movements. Doctors are no help. I’m over it! /u/randommmhuman777 Sex

I used to masturbate when I was a tween/young teen (12-15 years old) by dry humping pretty aggressively and cumming in my underwear against my pillow. One day in 2018 (age 15), I woke up and my penis was numb on one side. I was scared and didn’t tell anyone for years until late 2021-2022 (age 19-20) and I’ve seen 2 urologists who have excused and done nothing. The hourglass penis/bowel movement symptom started a few years after the numbness and overall my penis still greatly lacks sensitivity. The urologist dismissed everything saying that men lose sensitivity as they age as if I’m 50 and middle aged and the second one said they don’t know and there’s nothing they can do but my penis looks and feels normal. Despite getting normal erections (which I don’t feel as much) and having the lack there of sensation, I’ve been very depressed and suicidal as I feel like I will never be able to really enjoy sex. I only had sex once and it was protected anal with another guy (I topped) and I felt the tightness and still came but it just didn’t feel as sensitive. I feel hopeless and ignored. I know there is something wrong as men my age are having fun/sex with a very sensitive penis and I’m just here with these issues. I don’t know if it is psychological as I have been dealing with social anxiety, health anxiety, ocd, depression throughout my adolescence with no help on that. I have been feeling very suicidal recently. Why is all I ask and please offer advice!

I used to masturbate when I was a tween/young teen (12-15 years old) by dry humping pretty aggressively and cumming in my underwear against my pillow. One day in 2018 (age 15), I woke up and my penis was numb on one side. I was scared and didn’t tell anyone for years until late 2021-2022 (age 19-20) and I’ve seen 2 urologists who have excused and done nothing. The hourglass penis/bowel movement symptom started a few years after the numbness and overall my penis still greatly lacks sensitivity. The urologist dismissed everything saying that men lose sensitivity as they age as if I’m 50 and middle aged and the second one said they don’t know and there’s nothing they can do but my penis looks and feels normal. Despite getting normal erections (which I don’t feel as much) and having the lack there of sensation, I’ve been very depressed and suicidal as I feel like I will never be able to really enjoy sex. I only had sex once and it was protected anal with another guy (I topped) and I felt the tightness and still came but it just didn’t feel as sensitive. I feel hopeless and ignored. I know there is something wrong as men my age are having fun/sex with a very sensitive penis and I’m just here with these issues. I don’t know if it is psychological as I have been dealing with social anxiety, health anxiety, ocd, depression throughout my adolescence with no help on that. I have been feeling very suicidal recently. Why is all I ask and please offer advice!