i am confused about masturbaton /u/throwawayanon121lol Sex

sorry if this is a dumb post and that it’s kinda long. i’m just gonna get into it.

For reference, i am a female. i haven’t really masturbated that many times before, at least in the way that people generally think of masturbation. i’ve kinda tried just with my fingers before on my clit and on the outside of my vagina, when i’ve tried going inside it doesn’t feel like much. when i masturbate like this it feels good, but not like “omg this is so good” and the good feelings aren’t really consistent. my ex boyfriend fingered me a lot and it felt really good and i liked it, but i’ve never cummed before, and while getting fingered felt good, it never felt i was going to climax or anything like that. he also didn’t give me head very much but when he did it felt good, but not amazing in any way (it also might’ve been he just didn’t know how to do it, but still). i also have a really small cheap vibrater i’ve used before, but again, it feels good but not amazing.

i have this thing where when i get horny, i start to squeeze my thighs together in a particular way and it feels good. i can keep doing it and after around a few minutes i’m squeezing and it all of a sudden feels really good, and that can last for around 5 to 20 seconds, but after it stops squeezing my legs together doesn’t feel good anymore and i stop being horny.

this is like the closest thing i think i’ve felt to a “climax” but it’s not cumming? i don’t understand why this happens and why it can feel good but that doesn’t happen when i hooked up with my boyfriend, and like i said before, i never feel anything like that while masturbating. does anyone have any insight on why this happens and why i might only feel really good this way? or has anyone experienced something similar?

sorry if this is a dumb post and that it’s kinda long. i’m just gonna get into it.

For reference, i am a female. i haven’t really masturbated that many times before, at least in the way that people generally think of masturbation. i’ve kinda tried just with my fingers before on my clit and on the outside of my vagina, when i’ve tried going inside it doesn’t feel like much. when i masturbate like this it feels good, but not like “omg this is so good” and the good feelings aren’t really consistent. my ex boyfriend fingered me a lot and it felt really good and i liked it, but i’ve never cummed before, and while getting fingered felt good, it never felt i was going to climax or anything like that. he also didn’t give me head very much but when he did it felt good, but not amazing in any way (it also might’ve been he just didn’t know how to do it, but still). i also have a really small cheap vibrater i’ve used before, but again, it feels good but not amazing.

i have this thing where when i get horny, i start to squeeze my thighs together in a particular way and it feels good. i can keep doing it and after around a few minutes i’m squeezing and it all of a sudden feels really good, and that can last for around 5 to 20 seconds, but after it stops squeezing my legs together doesn’t feel good anymore and i stop being horny.

this is like the closest thing i think i’ve felt to a “climax” but it’s not cumming? i don’t understand why this happens and why it can feel good but that doesn’t happen when i hooked up with my boyfriend, and like i said before, i never feel anything like that while masturbating. does anyone have any insight on why this happens and why i might only feel really good this way? or has anyone experienced something similar?