Really confused about my sexuality. /u/mikewood1440 Sex

For further context refer to my previous posts, but the gist of it is that those around me seem to think I’m bisexual for some reason which has been bothering me. I have a gay friend who really, really likes me as well.

Most responses I’ve been getting tell me he’s to be avoided and not to be walked all over, but I don’t know what I am and it’s really messing with my head.

To make things more complicated, in the last year I’d already started watching gay porn. Since I have no real life interest in looking at men in that way, I’ve justified this to myself as a weird fetish, which doesn’t necessarily indicate a desire to act it out, but sometimes I wonder whether that’s a cope because I’m in denial.

Another thing I use to define my sexuality is that around other guys I never feel nervous or anything like that, whereas when talking to girls, I get hopelessly nervous (if they’re women I find attractive).

Any pointers?

For further context refer to my previous posts, but the gist of it is that those around me seem to think I’m bisexual for some reason which has been bothering me. I have a gay friend who really, really likes me as well.

Most responses I’ve been getting tell me he’s to be avoided and not to be walked all over, but I don’t know what I am and it’s really messing with my head.

To make things more complicated, in the last year I’d already started watching gay porn. Since I have no real life interest in looking at men in that way, I’ve justified this to myself as a weird fetish, which doesn’t necessarily indicate a desire to act it out, but sometimes I wonder whether that’s a cope because I’m in denial.

Another thing I use to define my sexuality is that around other guys I never feel nervous or anything like that, whereas when talking to girls, I get hopelessly nervous (if they’re women I find attractive).

Any pointers?