[F] How can I make my fantasy a reality? /u/MsFrazzled Sex

I’m a female who identifies as mostly straight, but with bisexual interests. I discovered anime at around 13 years old, and quickly became obsessed with big titty anime girls. As a teen I was very sexually reserved, and the only porn I consumed was anime with “fanservice” elements. No actual sex, but a lot of sexually suggestive situations and girls with big breasts.

I became very turned on by the concept of an innocent character whose body could be sexualized and sexually manipulated by others against their will. I developed a lactation fetish, wherein girls’ breasts are milked out of necessity and they derive pleasure from it without intending to. A key point in this fantasy is that she has no control over her body or sexuality, and it’s almost seen as an inconvenience or embarrassment.

Years later I began having sexual relationships with men, which I enjoyed! Being with guys turned me on and they were able to make me cum. I didn’t develop any crushes on girls, but I developed powerful crushes on boys… I started thinking about boys when I masturbated–imagining scenarios between them and myself, their bodies, and the sounds of their voice. I enjoyed those fantasies, too. Thinking about real women doesn’t really turn me on…but I’m planning to explore more irl encounters with women to see if I like it.

But the anime girls still remain on my mind. They are always the quickest/easiest way for me to orgasm… but I’m realizing that it’s more about the sexual innocence/corruption dichotomy that turns me on, rather than the big tits themselves. When I see women with big boobs irl it does nothing for me.

This is a long way of asking.. how can I incorporate my fantasy into my real life? I have very small tits (maybe there’s some boob envy lol) but I’d love to play with themes of sexual innocence, being made to cum without wanting it, sexual corruption, and forced sexual objectification? I’m beginning this journey and open to any ideas.

I’m a female who identifies as mostly straight, but with bisexual interests. I discovered anime at around 13 years old, and quickly became obsessed with big titty anime girls. As a teen I was very sexually reserved, and the only porn I consumed was anime with “fanservice” elements. No actual sex, but a lot of sexually suggestive situations and girls with big breasts.

I became very turned on by the concept of an innocent character whose body could be sexualized and sexually manipulated by others against their will. I developed a lactation fetish, wherein girls’ breasts are milked out of necessity and they derive pleasure from it without intending to. A key point in this fantasy is that she has no control over her body or sexuality, and it’s almost seen as an inconvenience or embarrassment.

Years later I began having sexual relationships with men, which I enjoyed! Being with guys turned me on and they were able to make me cum. I didn’t develop any crushes on girls, but I developed powerful crushes on boys… I started thinking about boys when I masturbated–imagining scenarios between them and myself, their bodies, and the sounds of their voice. I enjoyed those fantasies, too. Thinking about real women doesn’t really turn me on…but I’m planning to explore more irl encounters with women to see if I like it.

But the anime girls still remain on my mind. They are always the quickest/easiest way for me to orgasm… but I’m realizing that it’s more about the sexual innocence/corruption dichotomy that turns me on, rather than the big tits themselves. When I see women with big boobs irl it does nothing for me.

This is a long way of asking.. how can I incorporate my fantasy into my real life? I have very small tits (maybe there’s some boob envy lol) but I’d love to play with themes of sexual innocence, being made to cum without wanting it, sexual corruption, and forced sexual objectification? I’m beginning this journey and open to any ideas.